Sunday, October 23, 2011

THE END OF A CHAPTER

As I mentioned in my last blog post about a month ago, change is in the air here.  The end of a major chapter in my life will be happening within the next 2 weeks, and a new one will be starting. 

Although I'm disappointed in what happened with the failing of my marriage, I am honestly at peace with what is going on.  I'm also grateful that both me and my "husband" are able to handle this as maturely as we have been, all while keeping our son's best interests at heart.  I jokingly say we're kind of like Demi Moore and Bruce Willis; as although they are no longer together, they appear to get along well and do things together with/for their kids.  I'm hoping we can at least do that for EJ's sake. 

I know my new future will have its many ups and (and hopefully few) downs, but I am truly looking forward to it and am embracing the changes.  As I've always said, in life you have two choices - be a victim or be a survivor.  Obviously, we know which one I choose to be :-) 

Until the next chapter begins...

Wishing you peace, love, and happiness,
Krissy W.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

A New Direction


For those of you who know me personally, you know what I've been dealing with this past year...With the stress of that whole situation and the uncertainty of my future, I've been pretty low key on here.  Guess I didn't want anything I posted to "bite me in the ass" in any way, shape, or form.  Well, I'm hoping to have a clearer picture of how things will look and turn out for me and EJ some time next week after the next 4-way lawyer meeting.  With that in mind, I'm thinking of changing the "content" of what I'll be posting on my blog.  I'm thinking it'll cover the daily/weekly ups and downs, triumphs and troubles of being a separated/single mom with a preschooler; learning how to cope with not having my son living here with me a couple nights each week (I'm dreading that and it makes me quite sad when I think about it); caring for a house I really don't want to be in until it can be put on the market and sold; handling my Multiple Sclerosis and getting my current relapse back under control; and how I can juggle all that while completely changing the direction of my "diet" to a much more whole/Paleo way of living, which is completely new to me.  Not biting off too much here, am I?!?!

So, I'll know more sometime later next week on when the next "big step" is being made in regards to my living situation.Once that is settled and done, my plan is to be a much more vigilant blogger :-)  Stay tuned!!!


Until then...
Wishing you peace, love, and happiness,
Krissy W

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Week 1 of Staycation Time

This week my husband is on vacation from his regular job, so we're using the time to do day trips and other fun things with our son.  I will say it's definitely different from vacations/staycations we've had in the past since my husband and I are currently in the process of separating/divorcing.  But, for the most part, we do get along, so it's not like time spent together is really awkward or anything.  Plus, we've both agreed to put our differences/issues aside for the sake of our son.  No need to make anything harder on him than it will already be once things are finalized.

Yesterday was a picture perfect day here in NY, so we took a trip up to the park on Glenmere Lake in the next town over from where we live.  I always forget that it's there, which is a shame since it's a GORGEOUS place to spend an afternoon :-)  For me, there's nothing more relaxing than being by the water.  After our beautiful and tasty waterfront picnic lunch (Got to love sandwiches from the Quaker Creek Store!!!), we headed home for a bit and then went bowling in Chester.  Well, EJ was a bit tired/cranky from the earlier events of the day, so bowling wasn't too huge of a success, despite him asking for weeks to go.  Since we had to take turns keeping EJ from running across everyone's lanes and going amok in the bowling alley, I completely forgot to take my camera out while we were there.  Oh well, there's always next time!!!

My main man - EJ!!!
Mommy & EJ enjoying our picnic lunch at the lake :-)  What more could I really ask for?

A gorgeous view

Clouds reflecting on the shimmering lake :-)  Wish I had my better/fancier camera for this shot!

Guess the chains are so that Yogi & Boo-Boo Bear don't run off with the pic-a-nic table - lol :-)

Lovin' the Dragonfly!!!  Again, wish I had my better camera for this shot.
Bye Bye Mommy!!!
"You should have seen the one that got away...He was this big...."

On our agenda for the remainder of the week we'll be off to Space Farms in Jersey, a pool playdate at a friend's house, and probably the Great American Weekend in Goshen.  Then, onto the following week, where the husband will be around once again.  He's already got plans for some "guy time" with EJ, which will be great for me.  As much as I adore and love my son, at least it will get them out of the house so I can clean/organize with no one underfoot and messing up what I did within less than an hour's time of my doing it...And, no, I'm not talking about my son, either!

Guess I should go and get my batteries charged and ready for tomorrow's adventures!

Wishing you peace, love, and happiness,
Krissy

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Left it on the floor......

As many of you may know by now, I started CrossFit back in May, which is a really amazing program that works on strength, stamina, endurance, power, speed, gymnastics, agility, and many other areas of fitness.  It's just so hard to describe, especially since I am such a newbie at it.  But, I'm telling you, my muscles feel it every day, and right now I'm only able to get there 2 mornings a week.  Looking forward to when it can be 3 days a week!  Even after doing it for such a short period of time, I can see how some people find it addicting.  Heck, the one guy there calls it his "play time" he enjoys it so much.  It's odd, since I'm not a morning person, I dread going there, am unmotivated, and still half asleep when I walk in the doors.  But, by the end of the workout, I'm in a better frame of mind, have more energy, and feel incredible overall :-)  And, yes, the aches and pains set in hours later and linger the next day, and sometimes even the day after that - LOL!!!  Although, I have left there a couple times with spaghetti legs and barely able to walk.  I hate when that happens.  It's not fun and everyone who sees me must think I'm drunk!  However, it is a sign that I made it through a particularly rough workout so I'll take it.  I know my technique is still raw and I've got a lot of work to do on it before I can progress further with some of the elements of the workouts.  Plus, my overall stability still needs to improve quite a bit, because it is messed up due to my Multiple Sclerosis, but I'll get better at it.  It'll just take time and hard work.  I'm ready and willing to give it my all.

Speaking of hard work, I think yesterday, Friday, was my best workout yet.  At least I felt that way at the end.  Over the years, especially in my 20s and early 30s before the MS set in, I'd take aerobics/step classes, belong to gyms where I'd use the nautilus machines, hike in the state parks, powerwalk along the boardwalk when I lived down the Jersey shore, even go out dancing on weekends back in my crazy single days.  Of course I'd work hard, get winded, and sweat up a storm.  Now, I've always said, I don't "glow" or "glisten" like some ladies...I SWEAT.  Well, at least I thought I did...I worked myself to the point where I was literally dripping huge drops of sweat on Friday...As my post title states...I left it on the floor...Droplets of my sweat splattered on the ground where I was working out...I don't remember that happening before, EVER...And, yes, I even had a towel with me while working out, but as soon as I'd wipe myself off, it just kept coming as I kept on going - lifting and swinging the 20-pound kettlebell, doing my push ups, pull ups, and other elements of my workout...Never giving up until my prescribed WOD (workout of the day) was COMPLETE...I've never felt so proud before knowing that I pushed myself further than I ever had.  I can only imagine what I'm capable of doing if I keep this up; and I'm super excited to find out!!!!

Oh, and by the way, at least my title wasn't "Left it ALL on the floor..." as that would indicate working out to the ultimate extreme of puking my guts out...And, yes, there is an official puke bucket at the gym just for that...For any of you that watch The Biggest Loser, you've seen some contestants pushed to that point...Yeah, with CrossFit you can and probably at one time or another will work and push yourself that hard...I know I've already gotten nauseous a few times already...Heck, there's even an exercise called a Pukie..That is one thing I'm soooo not looking forward to finding out what it is - LOL!!!!

Wishing you peace, love, and happiness,
Krissy

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I Scared Mommy...I Scared...

I don't want to...I scared, Mommy

 My son, who will be 3 in September, is always saying that he's scared of this thing or that.  He's definitely on the cautious side, which is something I can personally relate to as I've always been that way.  But, being the encouraging mom that I am and wanting my son to grow up to not be afraid to take chances, whenever he comes to me and says he's scared about something, I'll acknowledge how he feels, but then tell him there's nothing to be scared of.  If it's something new he's trying, I tell him the worst that can happen is he'll try and not like it or maybe not succeed in doing it the first time and that's OK.  But, better than that, is he could really love it and have some fun!  Ultimately, in the end, at least he tried.  So, in May, I decided to take my own advice and lead by example when it came to trying something new that scared the heck out of me.  If I talked the talk, I better walk the walk.

About 6 or so months ago, I got a "Friend" request on Facebook from an area CrossFit gym.  I accepted the friend request because I had heard about the gym/owner a few years back at one of the Multiple Sclerosis walks I participated in.  Not only do they do CrossFit at the gym, but also a program of modified exercises for older people (aka SENIOR CITIZENS) or people like me with a disability who don't feel they can do regular gym-type workouts/exercise classes, which is what I think the owner was promoting at the MS Walk that day.  I proceeded to check out their Facebook page and watch the Crossfit promo video posted there, and I was VERY intrigued and my curiosity piqued to say the least. This then led to much YouTube video searching of CrossFit.  I admit it, I'm a research junkie - LOL!!!  The sort of exercises/activities that encompass CrossFit seemed really up my alley to let my "inner being" out or maybe I should say my "inner beast" - LOL.  But, this is INTENSE exercise for "elite athletes," and I'm 41 and have had Multiple Sclerosis for 9 years at this point (it'll be 10 this July) which includes really bad fatigue issues, stability/balance issues, and neuropathy in both my hands & feet.  But it was something that I just couldn't get out of my head.  So, I talked with 2 of my doctors - my physiatrist (I see her for my mobility/stability issues) and my neurologist (my overall MS care); and they both gave me their blessings/thumbs up to try it.  Part of me wasn't expecting them to agree so easily and quickly - LOL!!!  But, I had the "official" go ahead from the doctors; and the only thing stopping me at that point was ME and all my self doubts and fear.  Well, after some gentle prodding by the gym owner over the previous months, I decided I had to follow my own advice that I give my son and try it out first hand.  What's the worse that could happen..I'd fail?  I'd make an ass of myself in front of complete strangers?  Certainly not the first time for that one!!!  Of course, those times I've usually had a few drinks in me ;-)  I've now been going to CrossFit for about 6 weeks (only once, maybe twice a week right now, as I have no one to watch my son any other weekday mornings), and I am enjoying the heck out of it!!!  It's tough as hell, and I've never sweated so much in my life.  But, even in that short amount of time, I'm seeing results in me physically, mentally, and emotionally.  Due to my MS issues, I'm definitely doing modified exercises/work outs, but I just keep doing my best each and every time I'm there and I keep on improving.  What more could I really ask for?  I know it'll take me a long time to "play with the big boys and girls" so to speak, but I know I CAN DO IT.  I just have to take it one squat, one modified push up, and whatever else is thrown at me at a time.  I will say this, for a "disabled old hag" I've definitely found a new lease on life :-)  And all it took was for me to lead by example in taking my own advice and wanting to be the best role model possible for my son :-)  Isn't that what being a mom is all about anyway?

Oh, and on a side note, today's workout was the toughest yet...There's a quote by Jillian Micheals "Unless you puke, faint, or die, KEEP GOING."  I'll be honest, doing those 15-pound kettlebell swings (all 115 of them in total) really made me want to puke by the end; but I kept on going when I wanted to quit so bad...I am proud of myself for accomplishing not only all those kettlebell swings, but EVERYTHING else that was thrown at me today, which was a lot!!!

Wow, I'm having fun now that I gave it a try!!!


Wishing you peace, love, and happiness,
Krissy

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

A Recent Weekend

Yes, I know...I haven't been blogging like I said I would :-(  Many aspects of my life are in a period of transition right now that there are days I don't know which end is up.   A bit of stress and a few more gray hairs going on to say the least - lol!!! 

Other than baking, the second hobby I have that relaxes me is taking photos of the beauty I see around me -  basically a "point-and-shoot" kind of gal, as I've never taken a class on photography.  I just capture the little things in life that bring me joy and peace.  I hope you enjoy these that I took a weekend or two ago :-)
















Wishing you peace, love, & happiness :-)
Krissy W.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Life Really Is A Bowl Of Oatmeal

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day who was saying that oatmeal was disgusting, bland, had icky texture, and so forth.  It definitely was not something this person enjoyed.  I tried to explain that it was all in how you jazzed it up.  That got me thinking this morning as I was making my breakfast.  Thanks to Forrest Gump's momma, we learned that life was like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get.  That may be true, but I also realized that life really was a big 'ol bowl of oatmeal.


Each day when you wake up, we're that plain bowl of oatmeal.  How we choose to dress it up is what makes it what we want it to be.  Some days, we want it to be relaxing, comforting, and uncomplicated so you just add hot water or milk, stir, and let it sit a minute before eating.


Some days we may want it to be energizing, fulfilling, and healthy so we can live an active life, then we'll mix in fruit, such as sliced bananas or some blueberries, and maybe even spice it up a bit with a zing or two of cinnamon or nutmeg.


Yet, other days you want it like your family and friends, sweet, sometimes complicated, and a little bit nutty so you'll throw that oatmeal in a mixing bowl with some sugar, butter, chopped nuts, and other important ingredients and come out with a super tantalizing and delicious treat.  I'll admit, I do indulge in the sweetness of life a little bit too much these days for my hips' liking; but it does make my soul smile!!!


Of course, on my wild and crazy days, I just throw that simple oatmeal into my huge, super-powered Vitamix; rev it up to high; and make an amazing smoothie with some of my favorite things.  Nothing is better than that, especially when I can share it with others that I love!


See, oatmeal doesn't have to be boring, and neither does life.  Mix it up and experiment.  Let your heart, mood, cravings, and desires take you to where you need and want to go.  Only you will know what works best for you!!!

Wishing you peace, love, and happiness,
Krissy

Friday, May 6, 2011

Flowers, Weeds, & Peeling Paint. - The Beauty of the Every Day

I decided with it being Mother's Day weekend, that I'd indulge in some "me" time today and put off doing the laundry, picking up the toys while my son was at daycare, and the countless other things that "had" to get done.  Instead, I went outside to enjoy the gorgeous weather and walk around the yard with my camera to see what I could find.  The hour or so I spent out there was the most relaxing I've spent this entire week.  It was certainly worth putting off my chores :-)  I hope you enjoy the photos I'm posting.  Believe me, this is a very small sampling of what I took.  Good thing there's digital cameras now.  If I had to use film, I'd be in the poor house with all the shots I took - LOL.  Oh, and I would like to add one more thing...None of these have been Photoshopped.  I have the program but have absolutely NO CLUE how to use it.  Darn program doesn't even come with a basic users manual.  Frustrating!!!

















 Wishing you peace, love, & happiness along with a great big HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to all you moms out there!!!    Krissy